A Dread Ahead
August 4 2020 These days I am walking around with a sick feeling in my gut. I have lost to death some very significant people in my life. There was my dad when I was six years old. At twelve years old I lost my grandpa who had stood by me thick and thin through all kinds of trauma as a child. Besides my great grandfather, various aunts and uncles through the years whom I loved dearly, ( I only have one living uncle now on both sides of my family), besides my other grandfather, my husbands grandfather, whom I loved, and both my grandmothers in the eighties, I have no one living in my family now that is from the generation above me except one uncle and my mother. My cousins now have begun to die. I have lost two first cousins recently and one of their wives. Over three years ago I lost my husband. Death has become real to me. Tomorrow is burial of one of the few best few friends I have ever had. We went back to the 70's. My mother is 91 and when I think of her leaving is whe