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No Matter Our Circumstances

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 No matter our circumstances, life is a gift. No matter our circumstances, we must shift. Shift to slow gear and then back into drive. Watching each crossroad, that we make it alive. Throwing all our cares to Him He never leaves us hanging on a limb. No matter our circumstances, life is gift. No matter our circumstances, we must shift.

Remembering Mama

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     By Waylon Elmer Day      The last time I saw mama I knew the time was near. Her body had just given out on her and she was ready for that new body. On another visit I had asked her if she was ready to go and she said, “I am so ready!” On that last visit I whispered in her ear, “Mama we will all be alright. I love you and I know you have always loved me.” Kelly told me that all during that day mama would say, “Wait.” Kelly said she asked her if she was talking to her or “them” and she said, “them.” I think she was waiting for me to say goodbye. I sat there that night thinking that it was probably the last time I would see mama alive and what that meant. I told her one time years ago that the world would be a lot less interesting without her in it. She had me repeat that twice. She was such a unique and complex individual that influenced so many lives. Her passing was sad and left a large void, but it was not a tragedy. She was a child of God and had such a clear belief of eternity

The Little Wren With No Place To Go Except Home

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 November 16 2020 A small little wren has occupied my front porch ledge, no nest, just the ledge, and comes there to sleep nightly.  He has been doing this for many years, possibly five or more, and does nothing else there except sleep.   He gets in a certain corner, tucks his head in his wing and he is down for the night.  I often turn on the porch light to check and make sure he is there.  He almost always is there.  There are some nights he does not come to my porch to sleep, and I wonder where he is.  He is beginning to feel like one of the family.  In fact, when I have family in the evening, they check to see if  the wren is there.  It brings a comforting feeling to me when he does. I assume that this wren has made this place his home base, his go to so to speak.  What an example he is to me in light of the fact that I think about home and home base and where if feels like home.  I can name you a few things that make home feel like home.   It feels like home when the things I have

Awaiting

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 During 2020 from the beginning of January until now ( November 14, 2020) things have been in an upside down place for me.  After three years of adjusting and managing the death of my lifelong mate I had ( since I was 13) I had finally come to terms that this is what my life would be without him.  His death took my breath for about three years.  I was someplace breathing air, but it did not feel like life.  I had worked very hard to grieve healthily and feel I did and I am.  It will always be a continual process for us to expand our brain into believing that anything can be normal again after the loss of someone you love and have loved since a young teenager.   I could make humorous remarks about my husband's exit, he always wanted to leave events early and had little patience with lingering after an acceptable time at an event.  I was a lingerer and often wanted to socialize or talk with someone particularly.  We eventually sometimes chose to drive different vehicles to events, bu

Mother, My Mother

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 My last blog was called "A Dread Ahead".  Well it came on October 6, 2020.  My mother left this planet to take up a new residence in the presence of our Lord.  The pain of her absence and the finality of her death sucks the breath out me, decompressing my lungs..  My breathing space gets very small. This woman gave birth to me, she was in my life from the first instant of conception.  Now, she cannot be seen, she cannot be touched.  There is no way I can hug her again or look into her eyes and tell her I love her. Even as I  think about that, my lungs begin to ache. She was so much a part of who I am I find myself floundering to find how to stable myself.  She first comforted my brow as an infant.  She gave me milk from her breasts, bathed me, and kissed me.  She picked out pretty baby clothes for me.  She sat with me on the front porch to get fresh air and sunshine in the little squatty saw mill house we lived in when I was born.  She never for one minute ever made me think

A Dread Ahead

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August 4 2020 These days I am walking around with a sick feeling in my gut.  I have lost to death some very significant people in my life. There was my dad when I was six years old. At twelve years old I lost my grandpa who had stood by me thick and thin through all kinds of trauma as a child. Besides my great grandfather, various aunts and uncles through the years whom I loved dearly, ( I only have one living uncle now on both sides of my family),  besides my other grandfather, my husbands grandfather, whom I loved, and both my grandmothers in the eighties, I have no one living in my family now that is from the generation above me except one uncle and my mother. My cousins now have begun to die.  I have lost two first cousins recently and one of their wives.   Over three years ago I lost my husband.  Death has become real to me. Tomorrow is burial of one of the few  best few friends I have ever had.  We went back to the 70's.  My mother is 91 and when I think of her leaving is whe

Septics AC's and Weeds

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7/21/2020 Today is July 21, 2020.   I was up at 6 am, cleaned my face and moisturized, made my bed, and   listened to a sermon by Clyde Johns entitled, “The Mysterious Kingdom of God” posted on May 14, 2014 on therain.podbean.com. Around 8 am the city utility department came to mark the natural gas line in my yard because I was expecting a septic tank cleaner company to come to pump my septic that had backed up my entire system the day before.   It never dawned on me that septic tanks actually fill up after so many years.   Mine had not been pumped since it was installed in 1989.   Needless to say, it was solid waste.   After many questions to the owner, he   tells me about a new system called Aerobic Tank System that puts oxygen in the tank which actually eats the waste and keeps the septic clean.   While I am talking with the septic guy about how he got started in the poop business the air conditioner installers come to begin moving the duct work to get in a new 16 seer air co
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Psalm 88 11/1/2019 A song, a psalm of the son of Korah. Verse 1 O Lord, God of my salvation, I have cried out day and night before you.                  Psalm 27:9 Do not hide your face from me; do not turn your servant away in anger; you have been my help; do not leave me nor forsake me, O God of my salvation.                  The writer in the 2 7 th Psalm has clearly been helped by calling on our Father.   This 88 th psalm begins with a reminder to the God of our salvation that he has cried to Him day and night.                   How can we ever expect God to answer prayer if we are so sporadic with our prayers?   A consistency would seem a rather important thing to God.   Seeking Him not only in times of trouble and crisis, but also seeking Him because we just want to be with Him, desiring His presence, giving thanksgiving, loving Him.                   One of the things about people that stand out to me is their faithfulness; faithfulness in every aspect o